I go through times that I find it very difficult to write the EO. Not because I don’t enjoy it, but sometimes it doesn’t flow. It feels like the fingers are as stiff as the words. And that has been true for the last couple of days. You’ve probably noticed I am consistently one day behind.
Anyways, sometimes when I have these blocks, I am just really tired like I was a couple of days ago. Other times there is another culprit. And this time it is anxiety. Why am I anxious? Well, we have no jobs, limited income and in three weeks, no place to live. I think that enough to cause some level of concern. But I can handle that. But what I cannot handle is the lack of plan to deal with these things. And I don’t mean that I need to find us jobs and housing tomorrow, I just need a plan of attack to deal with all the above. It needs to cover likely contingencies, and provide actions for me to feel in control.
I don’t know what city we are moving to, I don’t know what jobs we are going to get and I don’t know the timeframe for these things. Can I come up with a plan of attack to deal with all of this? We’ve agreed to sit down to start a plan tomorrow – and I think it is because Emile cannot handle watching me vibrate any more. I am a delight to live with.
August 9th, 2012 Extra-Ordinary: I feel better already with only a plan to make a plan.