Normally by this time of the year, I walk around smug and wondering why everyone is so worried about Christmas. By this time my gifts are wrapped, delivered and mailed, Christmas cards are done, the house is decorated, christmas get-togethers are planned, groceries are in the house, and I relax and enjoy the season. And now, none of these things are completed and I am almost a basket case. How do you people do this? My god!
I just cannot get to our Christmas cards in time. So many times I have sat down to write it, and my stress and frenetic behavior holds the words back. And nothing comes – it’s stilted and there is no joy in it. And I leave it, thinking I’ll find another day to get it done.
But there are no days left, no real way to get anything done on time. My husband told me I could do them after Christmas and that would be okay. But it doesn’t feel like it would, instead it feels likes I have failed. Ridiculous?
December 17th, 2012 Extra-Ordinary: Wound a little too tight.