The Daily EO: March 14th, 2016

I had coffee with a stranger today.  Well, actually, tea.  And it was agonizing, my stomach was in knots, I kept checking my phone (before hand – hoping that it might be cancelled and I could go home), and am utterly exhausted now from the effort.  A 30 minute tea at Starbucks.

I am bold, brash, and brave, and shy, vulnerable and anxious.  Once I am comfortable and you get to know me – I tell it like it is, I call you out on bullshit, and I am usually the one who speaks up when no one else does.  But if I don’t know you, or am not comfortable in the situation, I am crippled with anxiety, I start to sweat from my right armpit in particular, and I miss opportunities.

This is a “reverse bell curve personality” – there is no middle ground me with.   I do have a psychology degree, and so therefore pretty sure this is not a clinical or recognized diagnosis (especially as I made it up).  It doesn’t appear to be treatable except with more stranger tea.   But I am sure I am not the only one who suffers from it – though the right armpit thing seems weird to me.

I’ll have to get comfortable and ask someone about it.

 

March 14th, 2016 Extra-Ordinary:  I didn’t die.  I guess I have to do it again.  Urg.